My life is not going as it should, but I am at a loss of how to change it....
I am getting angry at the world, at myself, at the slow people who walk on 34th.
I am tired of having no life or being stuck with the wrong life.
I am tired of life.
I am tired of breathing.
I am tired of being.
I am tired.


There is no one like me on the entire planet. I always have to be with people who's ways I must conform to. I hate everyone and hate being alone. Perhaps I hate being alone because being alone is suppose to be wrong according to general consensus .

I hate that I have no apparent options on how to remove myself from this situation.

2005 New Years Resolutions

Zenify my life: keep room/house/office/bag clean

Take an art class

Swim

Draw the moon in twilight blue

Yoga

Go horse back riding in central park

Date

Do something I fear as often as possible

meditate

Learn to cook interesting food

write

Make love on white sheets

be positive

improve my French grammer

be nicer to my boss who is usually nice with me




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cry

only when i am unhappy