So hard to arrive at the end when you have been doing somewhere for so long....don't you think. Friday and now its the end and all I can concentrate is on the end because I don't really see a beginning anywhere in the sight. I worked there for 3 years to the dot and I thought this is it, my life, my health, and my intelligence is worth more than this unchallenging position. So I wrote a letter and left knowing that in this market it might be difficult to find something new that I might want to do and which would pay me enough so that I might want to keep doing it. But now that I have been to a couple of interviews I feel I would be cheeting myself to take these admin positions in which I would be someones gofer and the very lowest on the totem pole.
I am not sure how I arrived at this position. I am an incredibly dedicated hardworker who graduated from a good college (UCSB). I had dreams and aspirations. I had ambitions. And now the world is offering me table scraps!
I feel imposed upon by these worthless jobs and I feel frustrated by life in general.
The worse part is I don't see a clear way of my dilemma and I don't think its from lack of searching. I wonder is it the economy, or does everyone just settle for employment they feel are below them?
I am very confused.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Saturday, September 23, 2006
I handed my letter of resignation in this Monday!
I was expecting either lots of pleading or lots of angry comments from my boss as I am doing so only one month before a very hectic trip to Paris in which I would have translated a 200 page catalog in about 5 days and then helped take product orders. It was perhaps not an idea time to have lost an employee but it was a ideal time for me as I would do such a great bulk of the work for the same pay and then have been tied up for 2-3 months afterword with processing these orders pushing my new job search even further into the cold winter!!!
My idiot boss.....said ok that's fine we already have ideas for your replacement. However....either his idea didn't work out or he was lying because he asked if I continue my job from home for "a bit".
Not sure I want to work for such scum....but anyway a copy of the letters are below.
Tomorrow would have been my last day at work but I have decided to make it a personal day as I had 7 left of the 9 days.
Everything is up to date with Datafurn and all price circulars and general circulars have been posted.
It appears that this computer may be experiencing DF issues once again….just thought I would give you a heads up.
I think that’s everything.
Are you all set with Greg on the Health Benefits?
Also, have you cleared all your belongings here or is there anything you want us to put aside, or any special instructions?
Let me know also if you are willing to work on Datafurn from home. I can pay you per day as an independent contractor (i.e. you have to declare taxes yourself), or keep you a bit more on the payroll. It is up to you. Not a problem if you do not want to do, I would understand.
Good luck with your job search, if you don’t have a job already. Hopefully you can find something that is a better fit or correspond better to the work/money/environment you want.
I am divided. Half of me just wants to have him look like the loser he is and putting him an awkward situation by not answering and not offering to work from home. The other side is thinking of accepting on condition that he retains my service till October aloung with my health plan.
I am very divided.
It's not like i am vindictive he is just a terribe terrible person and deep down inside no matter how much i fight it i would like some retribution for all the crultey he has inflicted on me and my colleagues.
After all how many bosses lose 3 employees in a 4 employee office in the time span of 6 months? Onlhy a really terribe boss who is also either incredibly stupid and/or wrekless with his career.
be back later i have to run to deposit a check before he blocks it!!!
Posted by Seaurchin at 11:03 AM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Wasting a beautiful Saturday with my laptop surfing the internet and listening to mediation music. I feel I should be outside doing things but I can't imagine what these things should be.
I am quiting my job Monday and I am not quite sure where to go from here. This inaction is causing me frustration. Everyone else seems to have firm goals and ideas.....but my life seems like an endless pattern of aimless movements in no particular direction. I have tried getting help from friends but it they seem to think this is something i need to resolve on my lonesome....I was so desperate I even saw a psychic....but it didn't work. What makes things worse or better is that I will be leaving my position a month before a big trip I would normally be required to go on which would be a tremendous amount of work and pressure....so I am sure they will be upset but at the same time they or particularly my boss shortshanged my on raise I should have received this December because he gave someone else such a enormous increase it was no doubt taken from my upcoming salary. Although it makes it easier for me to walk away from this hostile situation, in the end i think its better this way because I may have felt compelled to stay had things turned out differently.
Posted by Seaurchin at 2:17 PM