Friday, February 15, 2008

Solo

Ooops I kind of missed V-day in that I was solo and happy for once about it. This time it came as sort of a relief considering that I have a red-heart, hand-holding, eye-gazing allergy. I am simply not a fan of dramatic emotions and gifts I don’t especially like but are expected to gush over while worrying about how i am going to avoid using/wearing/keeping them. Exclaiming "you shouldn't have" while wondering will it break, perhaps I can say it was stolen, or maybe lost.

There is also the fact that I am a creature of comfort and I don’t like getting dressed up and all the fuss of being into it. I don’t like maintaining conversations and listening. I don’t like sharing my bed, bedroom, or bathroom. I would rather sit in a café and fall into a good book. I want to go when I feel like, and leave when I want, and not have to think of calling or explaining. I don’t like demands, expectations, compromising and that is invariably what relationships are about. I would rather write. I would rather explore. I would rather google. Relationships are great but I have to have lots of room. I like to feel air. I like quiet. Yet being in one can be interesting at times because I have learned tons about myself I don’t think I would have learned otherwise…its just…I kind of like being solo. I wonder if this is selfish or wrong. I mean why can’t I be like everyone else and want the same things? Not that being unusual is wrong, but maybe isn’t it?

8 comments:

  1. I don't think it's wrong at all! We only have one life, and you might as well spend it doing what makes you happy.

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  2. How is the job search going, by the way?

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  3. Thanks for your comment Meesha. I have this strange idea that people can be compared to animals in the way that some people are social pack animals and some solitary territorial beasts.

    As for the job. Well I am relieved that I didn't find anything yet as I just received a nice bonus which turned out to be a little over 1/5 of my salary!

    I can't imagine having unintentionally left that chunk behind.

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  4. Heh heh... I know what it's like being a solitary territorial beast, I must say :) ...nice blog, by the way.

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  5. I like solitude. Company and relationships have to be pretty good to be as good as solitude.

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  6. Volpeculus, thank you for the compliment. Makes me feel as if these messages I throw in the ocean actually are being found!

    Strange as this may seem, much as I enjoy my solitary style it is always nice to know there are other solitary creatures.

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  7. Drodbar, I have to agree with you here, solitary people can be pretty choosy about the few they open the door to. But in the end I think the few bonds they make may be stronger then the average person with more company.

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